Through Uncertainty

Hello everyone and welcome back to my blog! I have been through so many drafts already and I still can’t find a proper introduction to this post, and I hope this will be the last one. So, you guys are probably wondering about the title and if ever you are, I’m here to explain and tell you a lot of things going on with my life!

Are you ready? Well, I’m ready!

So, the girl that you see in the picture is me. And right now, I have a lot of uncertainties (stuff) going on. I don’t know, really. I kept on sleeping all day and staying up all night to think about what’s gonna go ahead of me. It makes me so unsure, stressed, so anxious until finally, I decided to write this and ah, I just want to let it out!

MY COLLEGE LIFE. Sigh. I have mentioned to you guys that I am going to college because I have graduated senior high school last April, and yes, my parents wanted me to go to college and so am I. I wish I could go back to the time when I wrote My Preferred College Course & Profession (Psychiatrist?!)| SSHS because it felt like I was so sure about my plans in life but now, I’m in the situation of like a huge question mark. 

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I know what I want and that is I want to serve my country. My passion of serving the people and the country never ran out, and I really want to pursue law (again). I honestly love any course related to social science but Psychology and Political Science is having a major battle in my mind right now. Before, my first choice was always Psychology but I’m having second thoughts because I do want to pursue law and taking up Political Science is much preferred as a pre-law course. And here’s another thing, there are a lot of external factors telling me that this is better, that’s one better and I’m just so confused right now. And, I know I shouldn’t be thinking about this stuff this early but I have no money to go to law school and I don’t want my parents to pay all of the books and the stuff I need. I want to have a job after my four-year course and yes, I’m also considering the job opportunities.

My mom wants me to save money by working abroad and then finally go to law school but if I take up Political Science, it would be hard to get a job since what I’ve studied about is our government and our politics. In Psychology, there’s a much better chance but it’s kind of far as a pre-law. I know that any course can be a pre-law because they don’t really look at it but I want to have a background already so it wouldn’t be too hard.

So, I’m about to enroll in Polytechnic University of the Philippines this coming May 17 and I still don’t have a course, so I ended up searching and reading articles about other courses and I just know I want to be happy when I finally enrolled.

I don’t know still and it makes me really nervous but I’m praying for this. Through uncertainty, I know that my God will help me. I know that He will lead me to the right way and I’m still waiting for His plans.

EDIT: I took up Bachelor of Arts in Philosophy and I am really happy about it. Maybe after all, God really did lead me to this path. And I honestly am enjoying my program as I really learn something new about life.

Thank you so much for listening to me! I’ll see you guys in my next post, bye!


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  1. Although it’s difficult to pick a subject and know that it’s going to be the one you really want to do, I think going to college in general is a huge matter of uncertainty. It’s a new way of studying, new people, a whole lot of change. It’s normal to feel uncertain about how it’s all going to work out, and it also means that you’re definitely not the only one who feels this way.
    In the UK if we start university and are unsure of the course at the start, we are allowed to switch. Maybe this is a possibility for you? Either way, you won’t know until you go for it, and there’s always ways around it if it doesn’t work out.
    I wish you the best of luck 😊

    1. Oh that’s good in the UK! I’ve heard that in where I’m about to enroll, they have this no pull-out policy wherein if you’ve passed your requirements, then they won’t give you the chance to transfer to other schools. But I WISH they’ll give us the chance to transfer in other courses if we feel like we don’t belong there or it’s not what we really want.

      Thank you so much! Your comment has helped me so much and I guess, everyone in college right now went through with this as well. I hope I’d manage, too! Thank you so much again!! x

      1. Ohh that’s not ideal! But yes hopefully they will. I think if you go with your gut and what you feel is the best for you, it’ll all be okay 😊 and no problem at all! x

        1. Thanks again!! 💗

  2. Awww I feel so bad for you! I just picked my options for my GCSEs & I went through a similar thing, just on a smaller level. It’s so hard having to decide what you want to do for a deadline they’ve set and I was constantly debating if I should choose this subject or that & loads of people were telling me to do one subject but I hated that subject and it’s all a bit of a mess! But I got my form in & I know you can too! 💕 Good luck in deciding 😄

    1. Ahhh I’m so not good at deciding! Good thing you finally get through it and may I ask what did you choose? Did you choose the one people telling you about or your own choice? And thank you so much, your comment really helped me and gave me hope that I can do it. Haha thank you! <3 x

      1. In the end I didn’t go with the one people were telling me to do because I knew I hated it & if I’d have taken it, it would have been a lot of work that I wasn’t passionate about 🙁
        Glad I could help! 💕

        1. Ah that’s so good to hear! ❤️ Thanks again, El!

  3. You’re so cute! I know it seems really stressful now (honestly I remember the days of picking studies and freaking out about how much I thought every choice would impact my future) but honestly – things will work out! whatever you pick, you’ll still be able to get where you need to in the end, so don’t stress yourself out too much hun xx

    1. Ah no, thank you so much!!! This really helped me to calm down and think that everything’s gonna turn out okay! Maybe I shouldn’t really stress so much about it. Thanks again lovely!! <3 x

  4. What a tough situation :/ Try and remember that whatever you pick, God has a perfect plan for your life! Millions of people have had to pick between college courses before 🙂 That doesn’t make it any less hard, but it does mean that eventually, you’ll choose the right one. Praying for you <3

    1. Yes, so much! It’s really hard to decide. 🙁 Thank you so much! I’m also thinking about it though.. those who have finished college or those who’s still in college probably went through the same stage and they did it anyway… it gives me hope. And maybe I shouldn’t worry so much, just trust God about it. Thank you so much for praying, it means a lot!! <3

  5. I’m not really good at all these kind of hard decisions, so I understand. You really have to pray hard and ask for God’s guidance. I’m sure that He will show you the way. All the best! ❤️

    1. Ahh I really hate deciding for my future!! 🙁 But thank you so much, Starling. You helped me calm down. I’m praying every day that He’ll lead me where He wants to lead me. Right now is a confusing one but I know He’ll help me get through it. !! Love lots! <3

      1. Yay I’m glad I helped somehow! ❤️❤️ Ly too

        1. 💗💗

  6. Awe, you poor dear. That sounds stressful. 🙁 I am really bad at making decisions…so I may not be the best help. 😛
    But like Starling said, focus on God. Pray and talk to him about whatever is making you anxious. Ask Him to give you peace in the right situation. Trust Him in this new stage of life, I am still in high school, but life is already feeling crazy. 😉 This is when Satan tries to make us weak and pull us away from Christ. So stay strong in your faith, and trust God. He has a wonderful plan for your life, sweet girl! <3

    1. It really is stressful, but then I try not to worry so much. It makes my head ache. 🙁 Sigh. Thank you so much. I’m praying every day that He’ll help me and lead me to where He wants me to be. Someone once told me that “wherever your feet is, that’s where your mission is,” and I just have to wait for His plans. Thank you so much for reminding me to be firm in my faith! It really means a lot!! <3

      1. Yeah so true! ❣️ Of course!! I will be praying for you! If you ever need someone to talk to, just reach out to me! ☺️😘🙏🏻

        1. Thank you so much, Gracie! ❤️

  7. It really is stressful, but then I try not to worry so much. It makes my head ache. 🙁 Sigh. Thank you so much. I’m praying every day that He’ll help me and lead me to where He wants me to be. Someone once told me that “wherever your feet is, that’s where your mission is,” and I just have to wait for His plans. Thank you so much for reminding me to be firm in my faith! It really means a lot!! <3

  8. sometimes writing it all out helps! definitely a time where there’s a lot of uncertainty, but it’s great that you’re taking the time to think things through, you’ll figure it all out 💛

    1. Thank you so much, Jamie! I guess I’ll continue writing and reflecting to finally come up with a decision! ❤️

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  10. Amazing post
    Keep it up

    1. Thank you so much! Take care! ✨

      1. You are most welcome

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