Hello everyone and welcome back to my blog! Of course, you probably have heard of meditation and what benefits can meditation bring but do you do it? I’ve known the benefits of meditation and how it can help to achieve a stable mental and emotional state but for some reasons, I have disregarded it the whole time. In this post, I’m going to share the experiences I have had as a beginner in meditating and some of the reasons why I meditate.
As a philosophy major, I have known how the Eastern philosophical cultures give importance to meditation. In Buddhism for example, it is through meditation that you achieve mindfulness and peace. In mindfulness, we can bring our attention to our present thoughts and experiences with no judgment. Through this, we can cultivate our present thoughts and it can actually reduce the weight of what we’re feeling or the stress and anxiety that’s taking over.
As I have mentioned earlier, I’ve disregarded meditation even though I know about it. Although I practice to take deep breaths from time to time, I didn’t give so much importance about mindful meditation wherein I’d find some place comfortable and just focus on my breathing or pranayama and just allow my thoughts to let in and let go freely.
Since we’re still in quarantine, I know people that are experiencing so much anxiety and other mental health issues. I, personally, have been struggling with anxiety ever since this quarantine started and it’s been bad. There’s no way I’m a professional about this nor I was professionally diagnosed but one time last May, I woke up at around 4 am and knew I was having an attack. I knew I was shaking, my chest was so heavy, I couldn’t breathe properly and I was just crying. I don’t know how long it lasted but I forced myself to feel and be aware of my surrounding, I opened Spotify and listened to worship songs and I was able to calm down.
It was really bad and I don’t want to experience it ever again. I have had moments like that before when I was in high school but for some reasons, it seemed like I’ve overcame it because it stopped. And then it came back. That’s when I knew that I wasn’t focusing so much on my mental health and do things to feel better.
These past few weeks, I’ve been struggling with out of nowhere anxiety and paranoia so I’ve decided to try meditation. Meditation, talking with my best friends and family, improving my room and workspace are some of the things that keeps me chilled and cooled down.
Here are the meditation videos that I have been using to help me meditate:
If you’re having a hard time and finding it difficult to breathe, you can watch the videos above because it surely helped me. I also really sit down in my puzzle mat and practice good posture so that I could really feel my breath.
So far, meditating has been a really huge help for me to reassess my thoughts, feelings and recognize my fears. It helps me allow my thoughts to let in without judgments and later on letting go.
Why I Meditate
- Reduce my anxiety, as mentioned above. Meditation has helped me feel that I am in control and if you have read my answers in The Real Neat Blog Award #2, one of my favorite quotes this time is from Kierkegaard. He states, “Whoever has learned to be anxious in the right way has learned the ultimate.” While I still don’t know to be anxious in the right way, at least I can feel that I am in control of myself.
- Understand what’s been keeping me anxious or what pains me.
- Helps me connect with myself. There are a lot of times I feel disconnected in my own self so it really helps me. Aside that I connect with myself, I also connect with my surroundings and the people around me.