As most of you know by now, I took the program, Bachelor of Arts in Philosophy, and as time goes by I definitely learned a lot of things about the ancient philosophers, cosmos, the medieval era of philosophy which studied mysticism, the nature of God and existentialism. I know that most of the times I have been confused about my own beliefs. Studying my program, I came to the fact that I know so little about what I believe in so I really needed a spiritual reassessment but one thing is for sure, I may have been confused, asked questions and all but I didn’t lose my faith.
I am more of a devotional believer before. I read God’s message through the daily Catholic readings, I pray and I know that I have established a deep connection with God, I go to the Church and I help other people, especially little children who are suffering from hunger, whenever I can and whenever I have something to spare. But again, because of my program, I have started to learn more about God scholastically. I have learned about the medieval doctors of the Church so far— St. Augustine, St. Thomas Aquinas, St. Bonaventure, St. Anselm and etc.— who acknowledged that faith and reason are not in conflict, in fact, they compliment each other.
“God does not expect us to submit our faith to Him without reason, but the very limits of our reason makes faith a necessity.” – St. Augustine of Hippo
This is definitely one of my favorite quotes by St. Augustine. I have read St. Augustine’s Confessions and I am deeply fascinated on how he shared his spiritual journey. He definitely has influenced me a lot about Christian faith and reason.
But what’s the point of this post? Where am I going with this?
This past Holy Week, I have been reflecting, a lot. I have been reading the daily Catholic readings to follow the sufferings and the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Ever since I was a kid, we always go to church every Holy Saturday night to have the Easter Vigil and to hear the good news of His resurrection. But last night, since we are all still on quarantine, I had no choice but to just sit in my room, pray and reflect.
I know that I pray every night and I couldn’t go to sleep without praying, but as I reflect last night, I know that I’ve been diving so much to the world of reason that I may have forgotten to profess my faith and make it stronger. As a believer, these two come together but I kind of focused more on the former. And last night, I remembered the message that our community Kuya (full-time missionary) told us when we had a Zoom meeting last March 29, 2020. He said, “What is happening today leads us to three callings: 1.) call to return to God; 2.) call to repentance and 3.) call to renewal.”
I haven’t really got the message until now. Since we are all locked up in quarantine, it’s really a good time to reflect about our spirituality: have we been praying consistently? Have we been trusting Him lately? Maybe most of us became astray from Him; but He is calling us to go back. We’ve been lost little children and our Father is calling us to go home. It’s never too late to go back to His arms again. Let us ask forgiveness and pray deeper. For the past year, I have been SO confused about a lot of things, I’ve been asking a lot of questions but I finally found clarity today: It is finished. HE is risen.
My world that has been filled with a lot of questions, fear and anxiety for what tomorrow will bring has finally gotten the best answer today- and that is all because of Jesus, our Savior.
“Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; He has risen, just as He said. Come and see the place where He lay.” Matthew 28:5-6
Let us all rejoice for He has come to save us. He died for all of us so we could live eternally with Him. Once again, let us come back. He is calling us to return to Him. So with a happy heart, let us embrace His love.
I know that it’s hard because of what’s happening today- increased death rates, more people suffering, the poor being left hungry and more vulnerable. It is hard to see hope that this, too, will end, but this day, Easter, reminds us that there is hope. The Light in the darkness has come; our Hope of salvation has come. Let us renew ourselves and follow Jesus.
As for me, I will continue to trust God about the things that’s been bothering me and continue holding on to Him as I continue on expanding my knowledge about what I believe in for it will have an impact to my faith as well. I pray that God would guide me all throughout this journey.
Thank you so much for reading. I missed writing about my faith and I really hope I made some points in this post. Happy Easter, everyone! There is always hope and our Hope has come! Let us pray altogether for the world to heal and for the outbreak to stop.
What has this quarantine taught you?
Please stay at home and don’t go out unless very necessary. Practice social distancing if you do. Salute to all the front liners risking their own lives to help in this whole situation. You are all heroes! Speak up to the government/authorities if they’re not doing their part. Wash your hands and avoid touching your face. Contact your families, relatives and friends who are far away from you, make sure they are safe and well. Pray deeper. Stay safe everyone!