To be frantically honest, this year wasn’t any better to me. I’ve had a lot of breakdowns, my family had a lot of downfalls. In this post, I’m going to reflect the negative experiences that I’ve encountered throughout the year. There are positives, of course, but I think that would be tackled in another post. Let’s start!
1. Leaving my old classmates. I’ve been with them for 4 years. I’ve spent the whole junior high school with them and it was finally time for us to separate. The saddest part was being separated with my best friend. It kept me thinking for days and asking what will happen. I’m not with the same people and I’m pretty much not used to it.
Reflect: It wasn’t that bad. I think I was really just scared of the whole new world coming up to me. I was scared to leave them behind because they were my comfort zone but I realized it’s okay. It’s okay to step out of your comfort zone because that’s where you’ll learn. Rhaine and I are still best friends, even apart. I also realized here that distance doesn’t matter as long as you’re keeping in touch.
2. Muning had born 3 kittens. There’s only 1 left. In my Muning’s kittens post, I’ve introduced to you Muning’s cute little kittens and shared some pictures. I think weeks after that, 2 of them died. It was painful.
3. Crookshanks died. You all know Crookshanks, he was my favourite cat and he was the one closest to me. Every night, he’d stay with me and every morning, he’ll wake me up because I think he knows that it’s time for me to wake up because of school. I loved him, so much. But then he died. He didn’t die of sickness or accident or anything, we don’t know why. It was very hard and I cried for days. I even cried at school and my teacher talked to me. It was very heartbreaking.
Reflection: Cats can’t stay with you forever. Nothing is ever permanent in this world and we have to deal with it.
4. 10 days after Crookshanks, my lolo died. It was painful. I was broken. I was shattered. And so does my family, the whole clan. I won’t forget this one because I haven’t had the chance to talk to him again. I’ve seen him in the hospital with cold hands already and that’s when I bid good bye. We’re still healing, though, but we’ll manage.
Reflect: Just like what I’ve said, nothing and no one is ever permanent in this world. We just borrowed this life from God and who are we to question His decisions? It hurts, yes. So much. But I guess it’s time to let my lolo free from the heartbreaks so that he’ll finally be able to go to heaven without worries and for him to be happy. My family manages and we were able to spent Christmas just fine. We all do this for my grandmother who amongst all of us, feel the pain a lot more.
5. Weeks after my lolo passed away, my aunt was diagnosed with stage 2 rectal cancer. It was another challenge for us. My family is pretty solid, that’s why we all help her overcome the challenge. My aunt is now having treatment after weeks of crying and holding the pain.
Reflect: Challenges come and go. One of my friends said that we face these challenges because God knows that we can surpass through these and all we need to do is strengthen our faith. Apparently, my faith was strengthened when she said this. It was the words that I needed.
These are things that I’ve experienced in my crazy 2017. This might not be the best year for me, but I’m pretty sure everything will be okay soon. Everything is up to the Lord now. 🙂